Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Memang aku nie tak gune agaknyer eh...
Entah mane letak otak nie.
...
Aku cuba
Untuk buat yang terbaik
Tapi
Kadang kala...
Bila aku cuba,
Aku gagal.
Ini semua bukan atas kehendakku.
Aku tidak ingin semua ini terjadi.
Tapi
Ia terjadi juga.
Aku hilaf.
Aku tidah mengharapkan
Pengertianmu...
Aku cuma ingin kau tau
Ini semua BUKAN atas kehendakku.
Aku tahu betapa kecewanya
Engkau denganku.
Maaf aku tidak akan
Pergi kemana.
Aku tahu kau tidak akan
Menerima maafku.
Tapi itu saja yang
Aku mampu berikan sekarang.
Aku manusia biasa.
Tiada kelebihan.
Malah,
Banyak kelemahan dan kekurangan
Dalam diriku.
Aku jauh beda dari kau.
Jauh sekali.
Tapi apakan daya.
Engkau tidak dapat menerima perbedaan ini.
Aku tahu
Pada engkau,
Maafku tidak berharga.
Tidak ada maknanya.
...Aku tidak boleh memaksa...
Aku tidak boleh memaksa
Kau untuk menerima maafku.
Tapi
Kalau saja kau tahu
Aku cukup hilaf.
ps: I'm not asking you to die with me.I'm not dragging you along.I know my sorries are worthless.ButThat's the only thing I can say.And it's sincere.I can't force you.
@4:58 AM
Monday, August 04, 2008
Fark it with all the things.
Fark everything.
Why do I have to feel
This MISERABLE
Everytime something
Went wrong...
It's not MY fault.
I don't see where I go wrong.
I did take the initiative.
Go ahead and blame me if I didn't.
But the thing is...
I DID!
But yet,
I still feel darn left out.
I still feel stoopidly miserable.
I still feel invisible.
How pathetic I was sitting there
Being invisible.
Not noticed by anyone...
Or maybe they choose to
Not notice me...
Why eh...
I have to put aside
My feelings
Just to care for yours...
It's never once.
Never twice...
I can say it's
ALL THE TIME
You people make me
Feel small.
Feel so not wanted.
Feel so never important
Feel invisible...
Where did I go wrong?
WHERE THE HELL DID I GO WRONG???
Why can't I just
Be carefree??
Why can't you people
Allow me to be carefree?
Maybe...
It's just my fault.
Thou' I know
That it's not true!
Taking full responsibilities
When things go wrong.
That's how it should be...right?
Just fark it.
I'm seriously tired of living.
Just living by the day
Wating for HIM
To take me away...
And maybe by then
I would be happier.
I don't matter to anyone
...remember?...
I'm gone...again
@8:58 PM
