Wednesday, April 30, 2008
...
Maybe I start the week with the wrong foot....
Maybe I start the week wrongly...
Maybe I start the week not like
How I used to...
Or maybe it's just ME...
Everything seem to be against me since Monday.
With the stimulation thingee,
With someone thinks that
I choose not to talk to her for dunnoe what reason,
With the usual blur me
Not knowing what they are talking about,
And feeling ever so left out since God knows when.
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD?!?!
Was it me?
Is it me...?
For the stimulation thingee,
I know it's my fault.
I was super dumb to even think that
It was some personal problem that I was chosen.
I wasn't thinking...
Got too carried away with my
Ever so low self-esteem...
But it's settled!
Then the not talking thingee,
It was settled last week...
It wasn't my fault though.
...
Then now????
I keep on reflecting on my actions...
Where did I go wrong?!?
Where did I go wrong
Till I feel so left out???
Or MAYBE...
Does being the "nerdy" one
Considered wrong?
I want to blend in...
I want to be NORMAL
I want to be like before...
But...
What in the world did
I do wrong to be so
LEFT OUT????
Having to hear one
"Chanting" vulgarities
Almost every minute
Even when it's not needed,
And asking one to stop the vulgarities
Considered wrong?
I wonder...
But IF I am wrong,
If I did a mistake,
Then...
I APOLOGISE...
@5:02 PM
